I am a dancing cloud that no one will ever catch an island I have made entirely for myself. Coconut ice cream and dagger seas. You can join in the foot pattern or merely observe from your plane passing by. But I will never leave I will not forsake this bird of my soul that has nested so deep inside that she can’t be caught or tamed. I am a dark fire ball that has landed to amaze and bring you warmth but I will not be dampened nor will I ever be explained. No one knows where I had come from or if I will keep digging deep into the soil that can’t keep me still. I vibrate red, an eternal flame that shatters mirrors and tears walls. I am the open air the rolling of the rocks that fall as you kick them down the mountain. Once I am moved I will keep moving not because I do not want to be where I was but to go where I know I’m supposed to go. And where is that? I don’t know. I am a mere contradiction that carves my own definition in to the tree of life. No words or iron clad fists can nail me. For I don’t even know my purpose but I know what I am. I am free and like this bird who is deep in my chest as I push off this mortal coil I will inhabit the nearest star and burn it up as bright as the noon day sky so that every single cell in this universe has a piece of what I was. Nothing but pure and unending desire passion and love that can be felt in the bones of your toes and the cells on the tip of your tongue. Taste with your heart, feel with your mind, and love with every inch of who you are and then you can see what it is to truly be me.
Sitting at my secretary, everything, the madness, seems arbitrary. (If it Rhymes it MUST be true). Lately it seems that everything has been spinning and spinning, with no signs of stopping. Hard to get a handle on things, let alone see straight. But now I take moments like this to just sit down and just be. Just being is incredibly important to full mental clarity, and lately I believe I’m beginning to understand exactly what that means.
Take today for an example. Last night I took it upon myself to map out my day today, from my very “morning routine” to even posting this blog, and my meditation tonight before bed. (Meditation Monday? haha). Waking up today knowing I had exact plans for myself, no matter how small they may seem, gave me purpose today and I actually got a lot done. Crazy how just a simple thing like a planner could have a profound impact on ones day-to-day life.
I have practically accomplished every, single, thing on my list. Maybe in my actual life with the bigger and much more outstanding goals, planning may not be such a bad thing after all.
I have always been the kind that likes to organize, to keep things tidy (sometimes), so I feel like I have clarity. But if I don’t take a conscious effort on the side to really talk to myself about what it is I NEED to accomplish, it may never get done.
So I’m writing today because, indeed, it was in my planner to do so, but I am also writing to encourage everyone to take the time to reflect on the day you had and the day you WANT to have tomorrow. Write it down, and believe me if you write it down it will be real, and you will accomplish what it is you need to accomplish. Better for you, for your mind, and for your life.
In The Garden, where the peonies grow. I take my stroll. Today I am reminded to take it slow. To let the sun embrace my skin. To take a deep breath and let the fresh air in. As simple as it can be to do, it’s not just the big moments but the little ones that matter too.
Bra~ Sunnie Push-up Aerie
Panties~ Cheeky Aerie
Socks~ Roaming Buffalo Target
Top~ Cloth & Stone Anthropologie
Bottom~ Elevenses Anthropologie
Outerwear~ Forever 21
Shoes~ Vagabond Shoemakers Urban Outfitters
Hat~ Ecoté Urban Outfitters
Bag~ Kiki’s Delivery Service Hot Topic
Jewelry~ •Amethyst Necklace May Martin Inc. • Cuff Target
Sunglasses~ Thrifted Buffalo Exchange
Lips~ Pivoine Sublime Rose Plum L’ Occitane en Provence
“Have you ever spoken up when you saw something going on that was wrong? Were you scared? What ended up happening?”
Since Sophomore year in high school I have been away from any social situation, being home-schooled and all, so it has been difficult for me to really have any opportunity at all to defend anyone. However, when I was little and in elementary school, roughly 3-5 grade, I always stood up for those around me that I felt was badly mistreated, Literally my fellow classmates, some of which I never really considered friends, would come to me when they needed someone to back them up, listen to them, or face someone who has done something horrible to them. One instance I remember was when this girl and boy were arguing I stepped in the middle and mediated. I wasn’t really scared but more upset if anything. They both ended up hating me as well as each other, but I felt good about myself for having stepped in, made me a “loser” in everyone’s eyes but I know I did the right thing for standing up for the right and trying to help them both see each other’s sides, to help them understand what was really going on. Even though because I did that everyone thought I was “uncool” I don’t regret doing the right thing…ever!
Another instance I think of was when I was in Junior High school a bunch of the kids in my class were pouring mustard on snails and because I’m a big believer of not causing living things unnecessary pain I tried to pry them off and I was yelling and screaming at them, they called me stupid or weird because I defending a snail. But I knew what I felt was right and doing that to any living creature is wrong in my eyes I stood up for the right thing.
*Note: Prompts courtesy of the 300 Writing Prompts book that I bought from Barnes and Noble. Every Saturday I will write a prompt or something interesting, just a bunch of shenanigans really. Hope you enjoyed today’s prompt. Let me know if you ever stood up for something you believed in and what happened I would really like to know! Hope you are having a greatly blessed weekend filled with Love and happiness.
All my everlasting peace and love to you all,